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HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR 2012 !

2012-01-26T08:02:00.000+08:00

First of all, Happy Lunar New Year 2012 to all !!
Secondly, I am back to work today....

Thirdly, I have 4 days worth of photos and stuff to upload here!!
May take a little longer, but I must say that I'm really excited to share!

Lastly, I know baby dotes on me alot alot alot a lot a lot ......... until a point whereby I felt a little spoilt ! O.O Alrights, I have to get back on track and work hard this new year, so may my efforts be appreciated and all hardwork be good! <3

Oh also also.... Niki and Winter hasn't been feeling well. They seem to have lost their appetite lately. Yes even Winter. So I fed them the appetite medicine prescribed by Dr Ling (from Namly Animal Clinic) and hopefully that helps. I may need to start Home Cook meals for them and I really hope they'll eat well in the coming days. :)

tata !

Our Sons.

2012-01-20T08:40:00.000+08:00

I manage to drop by the Pet Shop yesterday and bought two new toys and some new treats for the two. They were so excited when I came back. I'm so glad and happy to see them welcoming me home everyday.

I bought a Pig Head:

And a sweet:

Both of them keep exchanging and snatching each other's.

And I tried asking them to 'leave it':
AND THEY DID !! <3

My clever boys! <3
And I say : SMILE!!

So cute right !! hehehe ...

And then niki was struggling with the squeaky ..
He's so clever can !! He knows how to use his hand to grab it properly.

And while I was doing the laundry, they both waited patiently...

And !!!
THEY KISSED !!

So sweet ...... <3
I personally think that Niki is more acceptance to Winter now. He tends to play with him in a proper way, and sometimes allow him to snatch toys with him. They'd run around the house like mad dogs, and screaming at each other, but at the end of the day they will sleep close by one another.

Niki was so tired after a long play last night.

So does Winter..

And when I snapped that picture, Niki woke up giving me this blur look!

Both of them are so cute <3

Our Way Of Happiness ~

2012-01-19T23:56:00.000+08:00

We managed our little happiness with just a little more efforts. :)
We meet after work like usual for the past two weeks.

We had Pizza Hut @ Causeway Point.

He came directly from band.
I should have gone right after work cause band practice ended late today.

But anyway, my baby was so tired...

We got a seat within 10 minutes and food started coming in shortly.

I super like the Cheesy Portebello Mushroom!!
*slurps*

And we ordered two personal pan pizzas to share;
My favourite BBQ chicken & he ordered Curry Chicken

I made a booking early this afternoon for the movie "We not Naughty" screening at 9.30pm. Walked around after dinner and time passes really fast. My lips hasn't heal yet so I dropped the Popcorn idea. ='(

It's Thursday, and I am happier today.

3.7 !

2012-01-19T15:48:00.000+08:00

YEAH!! I did my appraisal for year 2011 and I got a 3.7!
Well I know 3.7 is not a big mark, but hey, its only over 5!
So its a 74% !! Heheee .... :D

I'm so happy because I'm barely in this new market for 3 months and things are going smoothly. Yes I do get stresses from work and stuff, but at the end of the day I manage to feel satisfied and move myself further. My boss also mentioned that I might be travelling around March, to be confirmed, but I suppose she's coming along....

It's alright.... I'll still enhance my trip by extending into Bali ! <3
Baby and I are gonna go for our little celebration tonight ! YEAHHHHHH ~~~

Embarrassing Moments.

2012-01-19T09:40:00.001+08:00

What would you do when you are in an embarrassed and awkwards situations?

Will you excuse yourself or turn a blind eye ?

Dinner @ Yoshinoya

2012-01-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

Baby had some problems with work, (and it's no longer his problem)... so he is a happier boy now. I'm so glad that he gets so excited to update me about his job stuff. It make me feel important to him that he has to share it with me.

And I like it.
Alrights, I admit being attention seeking many a times.
But i'm a girl, afterall. LOL, my excuse. hah.

We met up at Causeway Point, and baby bought me my favourite honeycomb popiah (I dont know what's that call) and it was a surprise call. I've never felt so well taken care of before. He is so into details that he sort of know that it'll make me happy.

So you see, some times, it takes that little effort to make some one smile.
It's not tough, its only whether you want it or not :D

I really must say, their standards are pretty bad now.
(I wouldn't wanna go back there again.)

After dinner, we slacked the whole time at my place while I did some work.
Nothing pretty much except for that Niki is trying to catch our attention all the while.
LOL.. cute little sons. Yes, baby's sons. And he's so happy for that title.

Love them all. <3

Appreciative!

2012-01-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

I've been really happy of late.
Only because, the people around apprecaites me.
I am that simple.

Work wise is getting better, I tend to be more open with regards to the problem I faced and am proud that there are more things that I could handle on my own now. And I get praised pretty often, so now I'm working extremely hard to earn those praises and smiles from my colleague!

Sometimes, a "Thank you" may be easy to say, but you'll know it if its from the heart or not. The feeling of being appreciated - PRICELESS!

And another thing I wanna mention again and again;
Maybe when fate comes knocking on your door, its yours - its yours.
I finally found that someone that i've been thinking of.

I'm not trying to be mushy here, but friends around me knows that all I want is to be appreciated in a relationship and not being taken for granted. Seriously, I met a few whom don't really care and yet I still pressed on thinking that they'll change. A total wrong.

When its here, its here.
I will keep reminding myself each day, of how lucky and fortunate I am today at present!

Tiring Today.

2012-01-17T23:48:00.002+08:00

I've been so worn out lately.
From work, from band, and probably lacking of rest.

Oh gosh..... look at my face! :(
But its okay, just THREE more days! <3

Baby came over to my place just now to look at the measurement of my room. Cause we're gonna re-arrange my room in a more proper manner, and to dump some really useless stuff.

I'm taken aback by the thoughts of throwing my piano altogether.
Sigh ...... We shall see.

Had two rather draggy meeting during noon time that taken me off from my usual job. Yes I must agree to an extend that these meetings put things in place however on the other hand, pile up my work! So I still have some pendings to do at the moment and initially I planned to work from home tonight.

Due to plain laziness, I gave up.
Sleep is more important!

Need'a Break.

2012-01-17T09:29:00.001+08:00

Need a break from work.
Has been feeling so draggy recently that my brain is malfunctioning.
Luckily CNY break is around the corner. Time to slow down and take a rest.

16.01.2012
Baby went WGS instead and he was happier.
We are humans afterall and there would be times when we gotta do things that we didn't want to. But life still goes on ....

Had dinner at Sun Plaza.

He so funny!
He say ..... 'finally see the Alice I see on FB photos' - because I straightened my hair yesterday, and that was what he is expecting to see me on the first time we met.

LOVE

2012-01-16T08:16:00.002+08:00

I really love this guy.
He made so huge impact to my life.
And I'm loving my change.

I should trust my instinct and move on together with him.
May all the good things happen to us! <3

Trust.

2012-01-16T08:12:00.000+08:00

Words are so powerful. So do emotions.
Plain words can be so neutural but with input of emotions, it kills.

But as simple as that, whether if you believe it or not, but I really must express it; If I am not trying to trust you and making you grow and learn, then why the hell I pass task for you to complete? I can jolly well just assign some other people to run the errands. If you don't appreciate my thoughts then forget it. I can always handle things by myself.

I don't wish to clarify any thing or any thoughts but a Thank you means Thank you. I won't even bother to talk to you if I don't like you. Hello, I am not that fake. And if you feel offended, please let me know, I can change the way I talk or change the way I do things.

Lastly, GQ and I has been trying to find people running the band for the longest time. Both of us has been here for so many donkey years and I definitely hope that no one will smear black paint on GQ's effort. If you think you have more ideas or new solutions in managing, we would really appreciate if you can step out to assist, or best, to take over the roles. We are 25 this year and we have our lives to plan ahead. We have our finances, houses, cars, family to plan, we can't be here forever.. Some one must take over eventually if not, closing down will be the last resort when we are both drained out and helpless.

Just some thing to think about:
Have any one ever pat him on his back, telling him "GQ, thank you for opening the door on time every practice and making sure we have enough scores and instruments to play on for the past 8 years." ? YES, EIGHT FRIGGING YEARS! He never once let go of this band and who really thanked him for that? I am proud to say, I do, and I do it every time because I treasure him and appreciate him for whatever he does, whether right or wrong. But of course we open up for discussion and accept each other's flaws.

He'll always be my best buddy and as long he is there, I'll help him.

And something more emotional on my side;
I know you love hanging out with your juniors. They are your pride and you are proud of them. Being with them makes you so glad and happy and etc. But I hope you also remember that you guys are once my juniors and I would love to really hang out with you all like how you all are doing it now. I am always so proud of you and hope that we can play together like a band because when you play well, I feel so proud too.

There are things which I may seem hard in front but I'm a girl afterall. I have my emotions and by not spelling it out doesn't mean I don't feel them. Those words are hurtful to me too. And if by not seeing me makes you happier, let me know. I really don't mind running all the admin stuff behind the scenes just to keep the band going because, afterall this band is there for all that has graduated, and hope to reunite and gather to play as a band again. If just by a few chances where by you saw my flaws and deem my unfit to be your 'senior', then I am sorry because I am only human. I make mistake too.

Well, enough of those said, I hope this long post does everyone good.
Pardon me for my poor grammar / vocab, I am only a phone call away.
There will be more events coming up and I hope things will run smoothly.
I seriously dislike politics and I assume no one does.

We all love this band and I hope with joint efforts, we can bring this band to the next level. :D

Weekends with Love !

2012-01-16T08:00:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY14 January 2012

We woke up as early as 7am!
Cause we planned to have breakfast together!

Yes we did, near my house.
And we took 901 to school together.
Reach band room around 9am and GQ panic cause the attendance was really poor, and Mr Lee was here.

I can fully understand his emotion there and then, because we use to not havve conductor and we will just go auto-pilot, play around and pack up. But now when things gets more serious, he want serious people too. So this is how the FB saga turns sour.

Well well..... I didn't wanna comment much cause I think i'm in no position to do so. I'll only run events and if you're interested, come. If not, we'll have to find some one else to do the job.

So after band practice, baby gotta rush for his lesson.
We had a quick lunch at Pastamania @ CWP.

My decent looking boyfriend <3

I had actually warned him during Breakfast that the attendance didn't seem very well today, and was telling him that.. If we don't have good attendance today, he'll have to take it as he's coming to band practice with me! That will make him feel better. LOL... But I dont know if it did or not~

YEAY! Baby cute cute.

Then we headed down to Tiong Bahru for his lesson while I went shopping on my own.

1 hour passed so quickly, and we went home for dinner after that with all my loots.
I'm a happy girl. Cause I managed to get the things I needed. :)

Yeap and we had dinner at home that night! <3

We didn't go for our long walk like usual cause we're both too tired.
I slept damn early.... 9pm? OMG ~

SUNDAY15 January 2012

Sunday is always a relaxing day for both of us.
We can sleep until noon, we can slowly stoll for breakfast, stroll to get some groceries, play games etc. Woke up real late.

His lesson starts at 3pm, headed down to Eunos with him again in exchange of him accompanying me to bath my two rascals.

hehehee....
He agreed to it of course!!

And we had Hokkien Mee after his lesson!!

Baby was famished!

And right after that we headed to my place and I did some basic grooming for Niki and Winter within 2 hours!

Winter keep humping at Niki.
Hahaha ... so cute. :D

So we had a small meal after my grooming session, we went to grab some sushi ~ I HAD MY SALMONS!! heheheee ....... and had coffee after that, and a long stroll, and a long talk along the way. He went back around 3am. :)

We shared so much similarities!
Love my baby. <3

FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN

2012-01-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

Yes 13.01.2012 - Baby's last day of reservist!
YAY we are both glad ....... ^^

As usual, we meet up after work for dinner.
But today is a lil' different!

(I like this photo !!!)
He came down to woodlands and went back my place to visit Niki and Winter.
We didn't walk the dogs cause it was pretty late, but the two had a good run along the corridoors. And the two really love him that they keep sticking around him.

Cutes. ^^v
Baby say he look like as if he is strangling Winter, and NIki's trying to save Winter.
LOL.

We headed down to Northpoint for Dinner @ his favourite Indian stall, YES ITS NICE!! But my lips were cracking and so NO SPICY food for me. :(

And walked down to Ginza after dinner. :D
We play the card games the we used to play, and sing those songs that we use to sing.
Nice~ I like! <3

We didn't stay till too late. 11 plus maybe?
Cause we know that we have band practice the next morning. :)

My Manicure Day

2012-01-13T08:24:00.001+08:00

YES! In fact I cleanly forgotten about my nail appointment until PINC call to check if its' confirmed! O.O Blur me. But anyways, this appointment was made last month and I didn't note it down anywhere. So ~~ yea.

I had a pale gold, which I think its nice and not too loud. Probably a change, and maybe I should stop gelish manicure for awhile after CNY. Time for a break! :D

So...... this last minute thing made me kinda worry cuz initially, baby and I were to meet at 5.30pm for dinner. We had our 'itinerary'planned and last minute there were changes.

He knock off pretty early, 4pm.
And I got him to wait for me at home.

Usually my mani pedi session ends around 7.30pm and yesterday was super duper late! 8.30pm !! I was late by an hour and it made me so so very the guilty cuz baby waited for me. Luckily I insisted him to stay at home, if not ~ ...

We met up for my dinner!
Yes i'm in specs. I think its okay to wear specs to work cuz its better for my eyes. Staring straight at the laptop can be harmful. And my eyes got so painful after awhile that I need to take a break. So, spending the 400 over bucks on my specs is one right choice I made (I think).

Some photos don't look nice inidividually, however when I compile them like that, it looks okay and I dont know why.... So yea. Baby say I still look better without specs. Alot better. T.T

So ... I brought him a surprise.
SIBF's competition's registration form.

His first reaction was "HUH YOU ALL SERIOUS AH?!!"
But as he continue reading the terms and conditions, we became aligned.
And i'm so happy that we're on the same line, and we think the same way.

I was telling him that if we were to choose between a competition and a concert, I'd go for the competition. At least it'll gain us more experience and try out different thing, AND most importantly, we have 6 months to work on 2 pieces for the competition, rather than 10 pieces for a concert and many more plannings to make, within the same time frame of 6 months.

So meanwhile, we can take up small projects like Istana's Open House, and KKH's performance, and work on our Competition so that we gain something else more worthy.

And as we talk and discuss, many ideas started strolling into his mind. I like to make him thinking... hahaha... And I like discussing stuff with him because, we will come to a conclusion and make things work. :) His main concern is the attendance, and I told him not to worry. I'll get that done, and I will do so.

We talked alot, and I like it.
And our day ended with a supper, again.

One Year; Niki Lim

2012-01-12T16:35:00.000+08:00

Left: 12.01.2011
Right: 12.01.2012

Look at how much my baby grew!

He use to be only one-tiled and now he is one and a half.

He is My pretty boy.

I hope for many more years to come with him and Winter. <3

Niki & Winter

2012-01-12T12:48:00.000+08:00

Some repeated photos here:
I'm so glad that Niki and Winter kinda liked him as much.

Niki has been rather naughty recently.
I'll tell you why..

Last night after our long walk, we came back home and I wanted to put on diapers for both Niki and Winter. I called out to Winter, and he walked over like usual, giving me his butt and I'll put the diapers on for him.

And Niki ......... when I called out to his name, he look at me with that... "huh .... again...." look, stood up, AND WALKED TOWARDS BABY!! O.M.G ....... My mum and baby laughted at me !! HUMPH !! ........ and I tried calling out to him a few more times, he just act blur, looked at me, and moved his butt to sit closer to baby! grr...... he was seeking help from baby cuz he didn't wanna put on his diapers. =.=

Both of them are just so cute!! <3

Baby came along with our walks ever since we're together. He never failed once to reject my request when I told him I feel like walking the dogs today. He'll say, 'lets go!' and get so excited when he sees them both.

So they had a good walk, ran around and stuff.
Niki slept so soundly last night. :)

I'm glad that both of them are healthy and loving. <3

12.01.2012
My aim is to walk them at least 3-4 times a week to distress.
So I hope that baby will walk them with me ;D

First Ice Cream Trip

2012-01-11T23:06:00.001+08:00

Gelare @ Causeway Point
11.01.2012

(Vanilla Bean & Raspberry Sorbet)

He really doted on me more than I expected.
And sometimes, it feels so strong that it makes me so little.

But anyway, he keep reminding me to be natural and don't release these negative vibes cuz it'll affect both of us, emotionally. All I can say that he is mature enough to handle me, and sensetive enough to handle my heart. I am so blessed. I gotta treasure whenever he has for me. :)

So I was on specs, and he said he didn't mind.
But I do. It affected so much of my confident level.
I ended up telling myself, 'ITS OKAY, when we go out then I'll dress up nicely for him!'

But he has his point.
If by wearing specs will make my eyes healtier, be it.
He'd rather look at those health benefits.
Mature right? LIKED!

This picture is kinda unglam, but I dont care.
He is looking too cute here.

I'm glad that he loves Niki and Winter as much as I do. He'll never reject the idea of walking them when I asked for, and he'll accompany me to do so. I enjoy walking the dog, and enjoy walking with him. I enjoy the way he accompany me to do things which I love doing.

There are too many things in my head which is tough to spell out. Lets make time do the talkings and we shall enjoy whatever we have for the moment. :)

We Are One Month Old

2012-01-10T22:40:00.001+08:00

We are One Month Old today.

Dian Xiao Er @ Causeway Point
We had a little feast, to give a little pat on our shoulders and to thank each other. And he knew that i'm stressed out with work, and he knew that bringing me for dinner will cheer me up. Initially he wanted to bring me for Ice Cream, but the que was super long, and our dinner was so filling. ;)

(and I paid the meal because he footed the bill the day before - yes its our rule.)
Oh ya, we went dining with my parents at Soup Restaurant yesterday, and he footed the bill.

YES AND I COLLECTED MY NEW SPECS!
ok, I FAILED in specs.
neh mind... its for work use.
He look so decent la.
Mr Lee.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
(he didn't like me calling him that)

And initially we wanted to walk the dogs, but it rained.

So we just stayed at home and played with them.

And I opened to him regarding my 'emo-period' during work yesterday. I also told him frankly how I felt when he couldn't reply me and stuff, that I started thinking too much and, those were u healthy to us. But instead, he hugged me tightly and say that he is very glad cuz the moment I receives his text, all these thoughts in me just disappears. And that shows the certain position he has in my heart.

He is mature enough for me to rely on. And I like the way he handles me, giving me choices and leaving me with sufficient freedom. :)

I truly wish for more to come. <3

Drained.

2012-01-10T17:07:00.001+08:00

Today is a bad day for me.

I got so emotional ever since I stepped into work and that makes me feel so demoralized. Worst thing comes after that - I started being paranoid and keep comparing myself with his exs. My morale dropped and nothing was left.

The seemingly short meeting made me feel so used up, and my work list grew so much longer. I know my appraisal is coming, and I'm definitely trying my best to keep up, however that kind of mental stress made me upside down.

I am lacking of sleep.

4:20pm; baby's text came. I was brighten up immediately. How amazingly...

Hard Front.

2012-01-10T15:47:00.004+08:00

I can't understand why I like to put up a hard front and then get emotionally affected behind the scenes. I seriously detest such act and can't believe that I am going through all these again.

When can I get over with it and settle my heart down?
Why do all these emotion roller coaster have to burden me like that?
Why am I forcing myself to get those doubts in him again and again?
Why can't I just trust the words he say flatly into my face?

And now I realise... I still have that trust issue.
I don't wanna break my heart once more, please.
Some one save me.

I should really feel blessed that he's willing to accept my past. I should be generous enough to accepth his too. But why am I feeling this awful now?

Feeling Clingy..

2012-01-10T08:16:00.000+08:00

I've been feeling so needy recently.
Just feel like clinging onto him literally 24/7.

And i'm starting to hate myself for being so dependent.
Why ... ? I really dislike myself for being like that.

Also something I dislike about relationship, that kind of misses and love lingering inside my heart, and the emotional needs and stuff, its kinda suffocating. Although its not a bad thing, but it's makes my heart races without a reason.

How ... ?
And worst, baby's at reservist now, and he is unable to text me this whole week. I am so not use to that now... And to be frank, I really hate the feeling of waiting and waiting for a reply. I keep getting so paranoid and keep checking on my phone to see if there's any surprise reply.

Sigh ...... I hope i'll get through this fast, and let our relationship settle down quickly so that I get some stable emotions.

"We Just Click"

2012-01-09T16:35:00.002+08:00

Yes we Clicked!

I have never found some one with so much in common.
The food, the environment, the loves, the expectation, the mindset, the common interests and the kind of attitude and character.

Frankly speaking, having him is like a dream coming true. He has all the good traits, extracted from my ex-boyfriends and combined into him, One. Only difference (a good one too) is that he plays my favourite Trumpet, and is super caring towards me. And I am really happy that I finally found 'the one' that will compromise and think for my sake. Of course, I won't bully him.. I'll treasure him even more.

I am someone who needs a lot of attention.
AND HE GAVE ME ALL OF WHAT HE HAS!!
On top of that, all those praises he showered onto me, PRICELESS!
He can make me feel so glad and comfort.

I never imagine that I can feel so comfortable being around him in such a short timeframe from knowing him. So that concluded (and proves) that love has no boundaries.

Weekends with Love

2012-01-08T22:45:00.001+08:00

We are sticklyli-stick-sticking to each other for the past one week.
I like . We went by bus, on Baby's compromisation.

Friday
We decided to head down to Sembawang Shopping Centre (Yes Kung Fu Paradise) to reminiscence about us. No, we didn't get to sit back to that very sit, but we sat side by side.

10.12.2011
06.01.2012

We even talked about what are the food he recommended!
But he wasn't aware that I didn't fancy noodles back then.
We laughted at each other pretty much.

It was really some laughter.
Funny max.

And both of us love long walks, love singing, love duets... And so we took a stroll after our late night supper. We walked till around 1am+ and went back home. We were trying to figure out what are the duets and harmonies that we could sing.

And I really like that!

Saturday:
We planned to head down to Tiong Bahru for his lesson while I walk around, and then to Ikea for Dinner and Queensway Shopping Centre to get his footwear.

I am really glad that he mange to find something he like.
;D

He really look kinda cute.
My boyboy. :)

So I went scouting that area and started shopping for stuff for baby. He is rather concerned over his skin's condition and since CNY is coming, I thought I could do something for him. But on the other hand, I'm really afraid that certain ingredients might give a negative reaction, so I was really careful on the list.

Sigh... I really hope I will do some help.
So, his lesson ended around 4pm, and we headed down to Ikea for an early dinner.

SEE MY DECENT LOOKING BABY!!

<3
I keep asking him if I could do a 'check-in' at Ikea.
His first reaction was that "err..." look. LOL

OKAY, i wasn't trying to be funny, just testing him out.
Likewise, I wouldn't cuz I dislike that kind of attention. We are very much alike in fact. And that's considered another plus point.

He wouldn't force me to do things I didn't like, and vice versa. :)

And we shopped around Ikea, looking at those showcases.
I realise that we have almost the same taste and comments for a lot of stuff.
Communicating with him is so much easier!

Queensway Shopping Centre was next.
He managed to get his footwear.
And I SO got the urge to get a pair of running shoes.
I look forward to running together with him! ^^

Headed down to Clarke Quay to meet his friends after that.

My decent boyboy. :)

<3

Lily's. The pub name.
I kinda miss Ginza while I was there.
I felt so lost and so so awkward.
And luckily his friends understand and took me as being shy.

Well, I hope I didn't throw his face that night. T.T
I'm so lousy. Tsk.

[[ EMOTIONS ]]

My confidence plunged from heaven to hell in split seconds that very night upon stepping into Lily's. I dont know why, and I wasn't in control. First time in my life I'm overwhelmed by such stressful force that it made me gone haywired. I couldn't think with a proper head.

I lost my coolness.

I was trying hard to break my limit. Was trying so hard that I forgotten about myself. That kind of stress I was going through that very moment could burst me anytime. But still, I hanged on trying to act as if I was okay. I didn't wanna put baby into an ugly spot. I don't want to appear as spoilt nor too kiddish. I want to make baby proud of me.

And so I hanged on.
But I think I failed badly.

But I am still glad afterall, that baby are sensetive towards my emotion. Or maybe I was too obvious to start with? (I don't know...) And so baby suggest we leave around 12plus, which I felt so relieved afterwards. I was so mindful about leaving a bad impression on his friends, especially infront of Hui Fen. She's so pretty, so capable and so much so that I felt so defeated emotionally when I see her.

I admit being jealous. And was a little upset after baby told me about the song "Yue Ding". I felt so cheated at that point of time. (okay, I was being too petty then) but I got over it within minutes cuz baby kept that physical contact with me, trying to pull my emotions back. It did help a little, but I was shy that I keep refusing. Again, I dont want to appear to his friends as being stickish and weak.

I really dont know what came into my head that very night. I just felt so dumb to think back now. I hope there'll be another chance for me to revive myself.

And lastly, I am really glad to have baby by my side. That love grew so much suddenly that I didn't remember for it to be so strong. I couldn't control myself now not to miss him badly. I felt so dumb and keep secretly hoping that his feelings for me were real and frank. Some times I really couldn't help by doubting him. I hope he will not get upset with me tho. But that is a frank sentence.

This time round, I'm so afraid of losing....

And coming back;

We had supper after that. Bad for health. But I like.
HEHEHEHEHEHE ..... And we had a new inside joke:
"Vincent Lee is a Environmentally Unfriendly Person."
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Sunday - we parted awhile while he went for his lesson, and I head home to settle my baobei. Its been a long while since I paid much attention to Niki and Winter. And I promise myself that i'll bring them out for walks at least three times a week.

We had lunch and MOS!
SO LOVE!! =D

And we had Ajisen Ramen for Dinner.
And I finally caught MISSION IMPOSSIBLE (A Ghost Protocol)!!

AND... we had a new inside joke:
"I have a environmentally unfriendly GIFTEN boyfriend"

BABY LOVE!

2012-01-06T14:21:00.004+08:00

We have no intentions to hide, neither we would wanna broadcast it like a crazy radio. Let nature take its course alright? :)

He is like a combination of all the good points from various of my ex boyfriends's character and attitude. That really shocked me much and left me feeling doubtious (is there a word like that?). I felt like i'm dreaming.

Till now, I don't see much flaws in him.
He's the Apple of my eye, (with a little worm inside).
hahaa.....

He always has his way to make me laught (like a mad woman).

We are spending everyday wisely, treasuring every moments with laughter. We sing to each other Like nobody's business and I really love to hear him singing. I don't wanna care what others might look upon us anymore cuz he told me not to. Well, I shall lead my blissful life as much as possible.

More baby's photo coming up =D

Things are going so well ever since he stepped into my life.
He named them as positive vibrations.
They attracted same energy into me.

He is so adorable.
(We're going Ikea for meatballs tomorrow!)

Life Plans

2012-01-05T08:35:00.003+08:00

He have plans in life to get settled down before 33years old. Which is 3 years from now. And deep in my heart, there are some thing pulling me back which I don't know what! But I'm glad, in his plans, there are dogs. He is my perfect angel.

Probably all the compiled fears acted up when he mentioned the word marriage. And thinking about that, I started to withdraw the thoughts of even being together with him cause I dont wanna lose him.

I think, I'm falling in love with him hard..

Holidays

2012-01-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

I'm going BKK in February with Sze Peh!
And ..... i'm gonna plan a holiday trip for baby also!

So excited. =)

02 January 2012

2012-01-03T16:54:00.002+08:00

I was woken up at 7.30am by Niki and Winter. But I fell asleep fast and finally get off bed at 8.30am. Fed the two rascals and try going back to sleep.

Was woken by a phone call. Sze Peh needs to go off for two days and gotta leave Cotton with me. Yes, today and tomorrow. She says she'll be here in an hours' time. And she did. Cotton came over arond 11am.

Luckily my family all likes Cotton.
In fact, my mum was the one taking care of her. Felt a lil' bad tho..
My brothers are at home most of the time, so its not an issue actually.

Well well...
He has to work on a usual Sunday. Tutoring a student at Jalan Tenah

I went down with him, waiting for his lesson for an hour. I occupy myself with magazine, and time passes pretty fast. Headed down to City Hall for his lunch, and walked around to find his shoes. Too bad, he didn't fancy anything.

So we went home to play with Niki, Winter and Cotton.
Mum was home, and I fed them. So cute...... :)
After that we went for another session of movie !

The Darkest Hour 11.15pm at Causewayp Point
We walk and talked our time away.

Sunday: We were together again.
I played his trumpet! ho ho ho ho ho ... damn tough. T.T

Okay cutie.
We didn't do much on Sunday. Purely rest day for us. :)

Ending Of 2011

2012-01-02T12:14:00.001+08:00

We met up on Friday for dinner.
He dropped by to visit Niki and Winter.

Had dinner together at the Chicken Rice Shop (CWP) and we parted around 9.30pm. I gotta OT at home for Year End Closing.... how sad. Was so stressed out and tired.

I was stucked at home clearing the invoices and stock for Monica to run her report and do her closing on Saturday as well. What a day!

So He came over my place and waited for me.
We had take away lunch brought by him, and he helped to entertain my two darlings while I worked! Nice? I like!

We wanted to watch a movie, but due to my work, we cancelled that.
Was finally ready to step out of house by 5pm, and we headed directly down to Vivo. Walked around and decided to catch a midnight movie after countdown.

Walked around further, and headed for dinner at:
"The King Louis Bar & Grill" #03-07A (Tel: 6276 0862)

The food is goooooooooooood ! *loves*

*SLURPS*
I really dont know what's this called, he made the call for dinner menu, but we have a variety of meats and vegs which I really liked! Of couse, I footed the bill cuz I owed it to him. Yes, we usually go on dutch cause I don't really see the need in him paying for my meals and such.

Im an independent girl!
YAY

So we had dinner from rough 7pm till 8plus, and we headed to the pet shop and Daiso. We had so much to talk and we couldnt stop laughing at each other's jokes. And frankly speaking, he has his mature side as well as the kiddish side which made me feel really attracted!

He is so easy going.

After dinner, we decided to walk the long bridge all the way into Sentosa.
We were too early for countdown, but nevermind.

Walked around the RWS side and he said he wanna bring me to Universal Studios someday.
He's pretty sweet right?

Sometimes I really wonder why some people can be so nice and yet, another can't. The love for me should be likewise equivalent? No? I dont know, really. But its okay for now.. I don't need to know it anyway. As long as i'm happy, I dont' wanna care else.

It's been a tiring last year and He said, feeling tired and wear out in a relationship is wrong! And I fully agree on this now. So I hope I'm not wrong about him now.

YAY. My first visit to this globe that every one is taking picture with!
Yea.. so we spent some time walking around Sentosa, walked for roughly 1.5hrs? And we headed back to Vivo for a drink and waited for the countdown

Year 2012.
He managed to pluck out that courage and pop that question.
Its not a question, its an answer. No, not an answer either.
He demand. No... I dont know what's that called, but it goes like this....

"I have something to tell you... (he held my hands)
From now onwards, everytime I see you I wanna hold your hands."
...... and he kissed on my forehead.

It's just some simple wordings but sad to say, some people just don't have that kind of courage. I find that there's something in him which I can't spell. Attractive and charming I should say! I melted although stunned on that split seconds. Never ever had this kind of feelings before.

Well anyway, I didn't reject him.
After so many encounters with him, I feel right with him.
Just click with him and I dont know why. But I felt shy.

So, movie was next:
Flying Swords of Dragon Gates @ 0015hrs.

He has that cute part which im starting to see in him.
So that was my Saturday.

We took the NR home (cab line was horrible) and stopped at Yishun for supper! Reach home around 4am.

Singapore Wind Symphony Presents ......

2011-12-30T09:56:00.006+08:00

Nakamura Gakuen Girls High School Wind Orchestra !!
(yes its a girls .. high school)

7.30PM @ SOTA - 29 Dec 2011

The SWS Youth Winds played 2 songs, and the Nakamura Girls took over. IT .. WAS ... A ..... BLAST! Seriously. And frankly speaking, other than the Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra's concert I went years ago, this is the second one printed so deeply in me. Some how or rather, such motivational concerts brings my passion stronger. They make me feel like running my band into a better and stronger phrase.

Well, lets see if anyone were to join me in that!

One of Niki's fan.
Jun Hao.

MY SAXmate no.1, SL + Bestie !!!
SHAN!! *hearts*
And my SAXmate no.2!
JOHAN! =D
AND LASTLY...........

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We've all grown up, didn't we?

B.A.N.D.

2011-12-29T12:41:00.002+08:00

OH I FOUND THIS ON YUI'S ALBUM!!

So long ago right? :)
But, I still *hearts* this band.
And so, we went back last night for their Band Camp.

YES WEEEE !!!

And the old ones ......

The people I love most. :)
I so wanna make the Alumni Band reunion come true!
So gonna!

I didn't stay till too late, we left at roughly 4am.
ShiMei and Lina is there so I am relieved.
The girls are mature enough to handle.

Ms Yati was the one whom requested for the 'senior female alumni' to stay. And frankly speaking, I always wish that she's still taking charge of the Band. I miss her.. and all other teachers. I miss my band days, I miss my fresh graduated days as Alumni.

I really can't understand why all those politics even came by in the first place. I always thought Band, especially Alumni, are the most matured ones, bonded by music and we should be like a family. Apparently, it breaks my heart to find that I wasn't part of them.

Dislike the feeling of being left out.
So I must persist.

I will still be around, cause afterall my passion still burns.
(But I am plain lazy.)

We shall see.

2011-12-29T10:19:00.000+08:00

"I've not thought about how good you are or how angelic are you. To me, its not about realising what you actually are, but whats you. Committing into a relationship to me is a form of acceptance and compromising."

Confusion

2011-12-29T07:49:00.000+08:00

Confused. Contradicting.
I need some Confidence right now.
I need Assurance.

Dislike the feeling of being insecure.
WHY .

I seriously mind how people look upon Me.
Yes. I. Do. And because he is known to everyone in the Band (like Joey) I ended up getting myself into pretty awkward situations. Sighs... I understand how the teachers want me to be happy, or at least find some one (they trust) that is reliable. I know they do dote on me and that is why~~ they keep doing the match make.

But I am really feeling so awkward, serious.
Sometimes when I don't know how I should react, i'll turn blind, deaf and mute. And people will start taking me as being snobbish.

Oh well. I am so stressed up with work lately. Till now, 3rd month into this role, some part of me still couldn't get use to that juggling part of load. I tend to topple over easily, getting fucking stressed up and couldn't finish my task, leading OTs and working from home. And they left me so dried up and tired.

Lets hope for a better tomorrow! And, 2 days to year 2012 !

Year 2011.

2011-12-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

I'm so so happy recently cuz I get to meet so many of my long-time-no-see friends!! Shan is one of them, YUI is next! And of cuz, Jol and Shir and SzePeh etc ... Well well, I only want to be happy for the rest of my life. So, the one and only thing I'm pressing myself to accomplish, is to stay happy no matter what lies in within!

2011 is coming to an end, I guess I shall do a round up on myself.

This is a fantastic year, except for the breaking up thing which is rather clingy. I got Niki, I got Winter, and so many newly made friends............ and also, got back my freedom. I don't know how I survived over the 3 years, but I believe some part of me really love him. But, loving is one thing, whether or not you're willing to compromise and sacrifies, is another.

So, I decided not to anymore ... It's too taxing for me. But anyway, I got Winter after that, so all my attention went into Winter and Niki. I love them both, really.

Niki came into my life on the 12th January. It's almost a year. And i'm gonna celebrate this special day with him. :)

I met up with some old friends..... TIAN TIAN FINALLY!!

And in this Year 2011, Ronny Registered his Marriage. We have a happier family, and my sis-in law is awesome. She's a teacher in Maris Stella.

Later in the months, Jolyne came talking to me again. Probably she've matured a little, knowing how to treasure something better now. We got really close, but still not as close as we use to...

But nevermind, she's still my buddy! Love her loads.

And Shan, I sort of... got closer to her to certain extend. In times, she'll just call me in the middle of the night, sobbing and needing someone to listen to her. I am glad that she thought of me sometimes. And slowly, I became so open to her that I allowed her into my secrets. Maybe I really like her, and I trust her. :) She's an awesome friend.

And because of Shan, I finally got back together with them.
Johan and Jonathan. Really love them.

And following; because of Niki, I got to know alot more people. Sze Peh is one of them, and I'm really close to her. We share almost everything, and she is sincere. I like her frankness and she never fake a smile. I like her.

And because of Sze Peh, I got to know Yappy.
He is a cheerful guy with loads of emotion.
Cute little chap.

05 September 2011
Winter came into my life. And I met more people... I became Single..
Luck start streaming in. I am counting myself lucky cuz the people I meet, are all kind hearted. They took me seriously and pays with sincerity. I like kind people (so that I can bully them)
hahahahaha ... no la.
I get to know alot of friends through niki and winter.
Serious. Together with my freedom.

And then my 24th birthday which no one remembers.

Except for my colleagues that celebrated my 24th birthday for me silently.
Yes ........ I have a cake this year :) And a card written by them.
I am so happppppy.

Then I ran the D&D event, met some more new people in the Company.
Edmund was our Emcee, so I met him.

He gave me alot more insights...
Was so amazed by his experiences. Young and amazing.
Talented. Really. He got a very good vocal.

And that series of event, I went back running band stuff, and just recently, I met Vincent.

He is Mr Toh's friend.
We got slightly closer due to common topics, and he kinda drew my passion back.

Lastly, something for myself;
I had my hair permed FINALLY!

I use to be forbidded on this hairstyle which I liked so much.
Now my little dream came true. :)

So, this is my happy family now.

My Christmas Series 2011

2011-12-27T07:47:00.000+08:00

Manage to meet up Tian on Friday.
We caught up, had a good dinner at Jack's, and headed down to Ginza.
I really hope she will be happier.
Not so much of a symphatising, but from the bottom of my heart.
Later on she went off meeting her friend, I went for Movie.

[WE BOUGHT A ZOO]
"all you need is that 20 seconds of courage"
It talks about life and how the dad handles his two kids with different age gap. He was trying very hard to resolve his son's issues and on the other hand, has to deal with a growing up child, emotionally. What I really liked about the show is about how a family compromises with each other, trying hard to learn about each other and accepting them. I like ! :)

Christmas Eve was good.
Had dinner with him:

My new found friend ;D
But but but... I don't wanna become reliant.

I strongly believe that it was those common topics that brought us along. Talking to him makes me see things which I (sad to say) neglected. Probably because he is mature. And I had so much to laugh at with him. He is a good singer. Very good. He is like a 2nd GQ to me.

Christmas Day:
Pawty at Jess's place was good. LG came to pick us up.
Niki love Bobby Tong so much that he didn't wanna leave. And he keep whining.

Cute.

I should spend more time with Niki and Winter.
Can't get enough of them.

They were the ones always standing by me.
Love them always.
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THEN
I had the NICEST Popcorn from CityLink @ CityHall!!

I really liked the caramel !!
Sinful. GOSH.

And out of the many first times, this is a special one!
Writing on a ball that will be thrown into the river...

OKAY - frankly speaking, I dont believe in making wishes.
But its kinda fun. LOL ...

The only thing I wish is for everyone around me to be happy and healthy.
The rest, they gotta make it happen themselves. :)
Likewise for me.

Headed down to Orchard after that.

Walked a little, and settled in at Absolute Thai for dinner.
I really must say that the Tom Yum was GOOOOOOOOD. And the pineapple rice and the Pandan Chicken. Shall bring Jolyne there next time ;D

So, ended up at Ginza till late.
The last sinful thing I did; Supper.

26th December: Day out with Shan.
IKEA MEATBALLS!!

BEANIE! <3

And we went down to Far East Plaza for her white dress after that.
We had our haircut too. She looks PRETTY AND COOL !! <3

I think i'll just fall in love with her soon.
LOLx.

And.. Dinner was with Sze Peh at Ajisen (CWP)
We finally meeeeeet ! hah. >.<

My Christmas is Special this year.

F.A.M.I.L.Y

2011-12-23T12:57:00.001+08:00

Father And Mother I Love You

My family came back from their Genting holiday on Tuesday night. I didn't get to speak to them until last night when I got home. Seriously, I love my home.

Mum cooked Chicken soup, and nothing beats home cooked food. I had my favourite piece of chicken breast, and was really filling. So dad was telling me that my work will not be a good one next year, and advises me not to change job cuz after next year, my life will be better.

So I think i'll just heed my dad's advice and hang on there! :)

Worthy.

2011-12-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

How do we measure how worthy a job is for you to stayput? Interest? Paycheck? Or you just get to slack around in office doing nothing - like how you like?

The amount of load and burden I carried during office hour is tearing me apart. (I am writing this now during my lunch break FYI.) So, I was talking about the stress I have today which totally made me feel like packing up and go home right away.

Putting all those aside, the good thing I liked about my job...
.....is my boss.

She 'invited' me into her office (I thought I did something seriously wrong!), asked me to take a sit, and asked about my load. She is always so kind to be there and assist. And I guess, if I were to leave this place, the person I'll miss most is her.

Well ....... I shall do some serious consideration first.

Once and for all ...

2011-12-21T09:35:00.002+08:00

Its too late.

I am responsible for what I say, but I'm not responsible for what you don't understand. So, I'll make things clear for you and me, once and for all.

KKH Christmas Performance

2011-12-20T19:21:00.001+08:00

I've got too much thoughts to be penned down, but due to time constrain, I shall let the pictures do the talkings. :)

Sometimes I really miss my band days.
Probably I should start picking myself up again.

My Overtime Pay

2011-12-19T15:23:00.003+08:00

For the past few weeks I've been doing hell'loads of OT.
And now its pay time . :)

I got off tomorrow morning when I requested.
My boss is a nice person. (okay, sometimes she gets emotional and whacked us all but still ~) Now I can go to the bank and settle my ATM card, and follow the band to KKH! ;D

Incy Wincy Spider Climbing Up The Spout !

2011-12-19T09:21:00.008+08:00

No, no spiders in my room.
But I've cleaned out dusty books and packed Niki's clothes.
I am all ready for Christmas and New Year!

- credits to shan for this picture above -

Friday (16/12/2011)
I rush down for rehearsal after work at NAFA
Shan came over my place, played with Niki and she loves Winter (I hope!)
And dinner was at Hot Tomato.

Vincent says CWP's hot tomatoes are not that nice.
I should check out the PS one soon ! ;D

CRAZY CHRISTMAS !

2011-12-17T22:15:00.002+08:00

Been there done that, and they've got a new fan - ME!!
I'm so envious of the performance they put up.
Really love their vocals!
I'm so proud of them, the dollies !

The First Noel

2011-12-17T17:00:00.002+08:00

17 September 2011

"Silent night.. Holy Night
All is calm, All is bright..
Round your virgin mother and child
Holy infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace"

- bestie never lies.

A Stint of ... Envious.

2011-12-15T17:21:00.002+08:00

As the titles shows; Yes.
Not so much of a jealousy cause there's really nothing to jealous about; Envious. But i'm not gonna let it happen again.

I'll wait.

Love Bites.

2011-12-13T08:28:00.007+08:00

From Niki, last night... on my hand. ='(
It hurts, inside...

WHAT HAPPENED? o.o
Niki was sleeping beside me, I was doing my work, Winter walked towards me wanting a pat on the head. Niki woke up, he growled at Winter, but Winter keeps walking towards me. Niki prepared to stand up, I went to held his butt, and he peck on my hand.

OUTCOME: ....
I BLEW UP !!
I caned him, he yelped.

Now there's a slight blue black. No bleeding.

CONCLUSION:
In fact, it was heartbreaking for me.
And the next thing on my mind was - should I change the sterilising date to January instead? Sigh... I'm in a lost right now.

What should I do?

Picking up a broken heart.

2011-12-12T09:14:00.006+08:00

....... and I finally manage to open up my heart to someone, let out my emotions that has hidden in myself for the longest time. Its a burden. And no normal person will understand my plight, neither myself do, but I know I brought it upon myself.

I finally broke down.

I do all the wrong things, made the wrong move, and now trying hard to console myself that everything will be okay. Why is it so hard to find someone to love me with his heart?

Band Conductor; Vincent Lee

2011-12-11T02:54:00.003+08:00

I was suppose to 'report' to band room with them, but I felt lazy. Played with Niki and Winter whole morning, went back to sleep, and finally decide to wake up at 11am.

We have to discuss certain issues for the X'mas performance.

Frankly speaking, I felt so relieved for my freedom. I need not report to anyone nor ask for permission just to meet another someone. I'm just glad that I need not beg and pray that I get curfews at age 24. No one should be restricting my life I told myself!

And after so long to search for an event for the band, I seriously wanted this to work out. I'll never let anyone to try ruining this band.

So I went meeting them at MRT station, and we lunched at SSC, Kungfu Paradise Cafe. I met a new friend, Vincent aka Mr Lee. He has been in WGS Alumni for quite some time and yet I haven't met him in person!

(Easy going person from the first impression, some one with a logic just like Mr Toh. I'm surprised that he loves Winter! :) He plays a trumpet, conducts a Band, and frequents Oldies - the another pub beside Ginza!)

He is currently taking the alumni band and guiding them out of goodwill. I guess we band members just have this kind of 'click' in us that allow us to communicate. Nice meeting him. We had a good lunch, some serious discussion to get the band ready to move on. :)

This shall be the band's core group for now.
I love their enthusiasm.

Well... My day didn't ended up pretty well. I walked a long stretch of road back, looked at the stars alone, thinking about my life and stuff. Ended up catching a movie alone. I felt silly. Really.

Our Love.

2011-12-10T09:27:00.004+08:00

I kept thinking; What happen to me, or us. Why am I so disturbed by your existence now? Why am I so worked up when I see your texts? Why and more whys in me that kept me dangling somewhere. I hate feeling insecure. I hate.

I took a tour back to my past, reading at the e-diary I kept. I realized that we parted with a valid reason. I am totally sure that I didn't walk out on you due to emotion. I had enough of it.

Reading back at those quarrels we had, now, I am so sure that we no longer have a chance. Call me heartless, or whatever, cause you've shattered my heart to so many pieces that it could no longer love. I was so torn that I find it hard to pick myself back, learning to trust again. But thanks to you, I became so much independent.

I know we ever loved, and I know you still care. But I can't take the inconsistency of your love, much. Are you really concerned? Or you are so busy into labeling me yours that you have forgotten our Love?

Through the posts, walking down with you for over these 3 years look so much like a dream come true to me. But this dream became a nightmare. I gave up my everything for you and yet you tampered it. I lose the trust in you in so many occasions that I no longer believe your love for me. I saw this back in my post;

04th April:

I am surprised by the first thing you say when we meet isnt’ how much you miss me nor to ask me how was work today, and it puzzles me more frequent now. In the past you’d randomly ask about work or we would talk about almost everything… but nowdays, what I’ll hear from you is how much money I spent and how fat and ugly I look.

‘ll always get a negative remark the first thing you see me. Am I really so bad that you have to give those comment? If so, please don’t come back looking for me anymore… You can go ahead and find whatever you liked best outside and leave me alone.

So I guess, your words really torn me apart. I feel so unappreciated and worthless in front of you. I'm so discouraged and demoralized by you that I felt so depressed back then. And I can't believe I actually became soft-hearted and went back coaxing you, asking you not to get angry at me.

FOR WHAT? I felt so dumb at myself now.
I should have given up long ago. But I was so in love with you that I thought I could make a change, trying so hard to save our relationship. But again and again.. it happened. I always thought the problem lies in me. YES in fact, cause I was never the one you are looking for.

So well ... now that things have settled in, I stood back and finally saw the larger picture. I was right to move on. I have no regrets and will never have.

Or maybe there is, which is to trust you too much that I lose myself.

My worst enemy.

2011-12-09T10:20:00.004+08:00

Emotions.
I always thought I am strong and my level of persistency never drops. But somehow or rather, I get emotion hiccups and it ruins my whole day. It gets into my nerves but I wasn't able to master the art in controling them. FAILED.

And so, I was falling badly since last night, keep have nightmare of being abandoned. Yes abandoned; the kind of lonely and suffocating feeling, disturbing and helpless which I totally didn't feel good about. I have friends, but I am never in their priority list. Am I not doing good enough?

Well, serve me right since I decided to be alone and this are my consequences. So what happen next? I counted myself lucky, managed to fix a date and I'm gonna be a bad girl this weekend getting drunk and making myself miserable inside.

D&D Appreciation Dinner

2011-12-09T08:45:00.012+08:00

We had a good laugh, a good dinner last evening at Shangri-La Hotel; The Line.

It was my first visit; no one wants to spend this kinda money with me for their dinner buffet, so I have always KIV this place. And finally I got the chance to dine in, FOR FREE!

I read reviews online saying that they have got one of the best oysters in town. And I am determined to try it.

The taste didn't favour me.
And my colleagues were saying that it was normal for first Oysters encounter. They had a few dozens in total. O M G .

For me, I ended up going to and fro the Sashimi bar.
I always like the way buffets are being displayed

And I liked the way they present the food. It's so pretty!

And so, at the end of everything, I decided to call for a photo. We didn't have chance to take a photo during D&D that day cuz all of us were running around. So.. yea. I felt nice meeting them all.

Andrew sent me home. 11pm.

My Special Boy; Yappy

2011-12-08T10:07:00.011+08:00

His name is Yappy.
He is a special boy to me.

Yappy is a cute kind, not cool, not handsome. He has a slight double eyelids, and although his eyes weren't big and bright, but they fitted nicely on him. He is a cheerful person, outgoing and sunshine kind of boy. Sweet with words (and careful), and really fun to hang out with. He is full of ideas and a little kiddish (or i'd say boyish). And I haven't seen the very mature side of him excepts when he talks about his ex. He kept his emotional side unfold, and can be really loving to people around him. He hides his feelings pretty well, he is a Gemini - that's what I described him infront of Sze Peh.

Have been out with him a couple of times and frankly speaking, he is the kind of guy that I would wanna be serious with. Putting his physicals aside, being with him is too comfy. I do not need to fake a smile nor sit nicely, pretent to laugh at his jokes or entertain him with silly stories. He is really easy going, down to earth and sociable.

As my title suggests, My Special Boy; its because I felt the click with him since our first text. Felt some kind of connection with him, some kind of familiarity in him.

Well. I shall not brood over what's not mine anymore.
He is freed.

Good Girl Gone Bad ...

2011-12-06T11:05:00.004+08:00

.... I'm not a good girl.
But I am a good girlfriend.

Tried and tested. I can do whatever it takes to survive a relationship if you know how to treasure me. I am not realistic, all I need is a simple home, with Love.

The Love I'm talking about, is respect wholeheartedly.
I have yet to find this guy that will take me in, wholeheartedly.
So... let me be a bad girl for now.

Pending

2011-12-01T12:26:00.003+08:00

I've got so many posts on draft that I can't seem to complete !! And its not that I don't have the time to do so, but the uploading of photo is taking FOREVER! And due to my limited patience, I ended up saving it till the next time.

But that's a wrong choice. I ended up saving all my posts as draft, and opening up new posts every other day. (sigh!)

You wait for me okay? >.+v

Indonesia Business Trip Day One

2011-11-29T18:20:00.008+08:00

Was on the 9:30am flight.
I was missing home badly the very moment I land my foot into the airport.
But anyways, not up to me to decide.

The 2hours journey was a smooth one. I slept all the way, waking up 20mins for brunch. I'm trying hard to capture more moments, and meanwhile I shall dot some here.

ME! I love the curls today. ;)

I finally came and this 'finally', is doing me well. I am starting to enjoy my moments here, be it being crushed with busy works, or challenged with queries. I'm prepared. And the people here are really nice that they made me wanna stay here some more.

Well well ... we will part one day, but not now. I shall make full use of whatever time I have here to settle some bad debts with these people, and also give them the right information on how I want them to work. Ebiz, Epimz SAP and whatever it is, YES i'm in control.

I touched down this little city around 11am, and those ques and checks took up another hour. I made my way through the crowd, looking for my name on the screen

Gastric Problem

2011-11-25T09:20:00.002+08:00

My gastric is giving me problem again, and my medication is at home. =( I gotta bear with it now... It will go away, I hope.

Went dinner with Sze Peh and her bf last night; we had crabs at Upper Thomson. Promised them that I'll be paying (yes I owe it to them), and I didn't eat much. I know my gastric wasn't doing well, but I tried my best. They keep insisting that i'm on diet for my 'date' this coming Sat. Pui. I can't explain any further cuz they keep smearing it dark. O . M . G . nehh mind~ They're nice people la anyway. :)

So I had quite a fair amount of food, and the moment I reach home, I can feel it coming. I have a really bad digestive system and I think I should cut down the quantity and increase the frequency.

My Perfect Marriage.

2011-11-23T09:03:00.007+08:00

My perfect marriage only exist in the big screens of movies. I will marry myself in real life.

I am sick and tired of promises, quarrels and all sorts of emotional roller coasters. And the only way to let me not get hurt, will be marrying to myself. I need freedom, I want to be responsible of my own decisions. Marriage, is just a piece of paper to me. If i'm not married happily, i'd rather not want it.

All women age. And I don't have much time.
Therefore I should enjoy what I have now and live the present. I understand that this may seem so selfish, but who cares anyway? If you aren't living for yourself, then why are you living?

And so because of this decision, i'm so gonna be thick skinned and do what it takes to accomplish whatever that'll make me happy. ha ha . Yes, i'm gonna work hard in my job to earn a better pay.

心動, 心.. 痛 ..

2011-11-22T08:14:00.002+08:00

I have fallen ...

2011-11-22T08:11:00.004+08:00

.... and I shouldn't have.

I wanted freedom, and this will not lead me to that... Its not the time now to play such prank on myself. I shall stop contacting him for a moment and let the matter rest. I need a break.

And moreover, I dont think he's interested either.
Why so serious?
Chill ...

Kaori Kobayashi - Free

2011-11-17T14:28:00.001+08:00

Kaori Kobayashi - Forever

2011-11-17T14:19:00.001+08:00

I have a Dream...

2011-11-17T13:07:00.008+08:00

..... it used to be so near me. My Dreams.
It slipped and I watch it die.
I have no courage to hold it tight... and I didn't.
And to look back at it now, I must say I haven't regret.
Just that the scars left behind keep tearing.

Sometimes I wonder, if I kept my Dreams in my bottle, will it still spill? But i'm learning to take charge now.

Finally I learnt that letting go will make things more beautiful.
Things that I didn't pursue in the past, maybe its time to do so now...
I can't wait another 10 years saying the same thing anymore.

Please let me live my life like how it uses to be...

New Friend; Edmund Toh

2011-11-17T08:41:00.015+08:00

I chose to go with my friends.
And so...

This is Edmund.
My first friend that marks my freedom.

This kind soul is willing to make friend with me.

Heels and Liquor

2011-11-16T11:41:00.005+08:00

Saying hello to 'em once more.
I am getting my freedom back.

Welcome Back ...

2011-11-14T13:24:00.002+08:00

Yes i've been missing for a short while and I finally decided to come back. :) I need my self to come back to me again.

Life goes on, and it'll be a good one I suppose.
May god bless me.